Part Three:

1. Well, here I am, in the place where there is no darkness. I'm not really sure how long I've been here, because there is no night and day, it is always bright. There are no windows and the cellings are really high up. I worry about the future, because all my fears are now confirmed, i do not know what will come of me after this, if I even survive another day. As I watch all the criminals being punished I can only wish that I may receive a razor blade. Oh how enticing that sounds.

2. O'Brien is not who I thought he was. All he has done is torture, me and play with my mind. I really don't know how much more of this I can take. He tells me I am insane, and a lunatic, but i know I am not. He says the torture will cure me and fix my memory but I know he is the insane one. Right now my greatest fear is Room 101.

3. I've been beaten and interogated for weeks now, I think. And O'Brien has turned me into some sort of beaten up, dead skeleton. O'Brien tells me that I will soon be cured, although I don't believe him. I am no longer myself, I am torn apart and beaten, I feel like I have aged 40 more years. I worry about what may happen next. But O'Brien tells me that it doesn't matter because I will be shot anyway.

4. The torture may be over, but I still do not know. I am now in a room where the pain is not as scary but it is still mind blowing. I want to die hating Big Brother. I hate him no matter what anyone tells me and I know for a fact that he is evil, and two and two in fact equal 4. I will never let Big Brother defeat me. Unless, I am taken to room 101.

5. The worst possible thing on earth has happened. O'brien is pure evil! He should be killed, he has no right to live. How could he torture me with RATS! Above any pain in the world, a bloody monstrous rat! I loathe them so much that I would even sell out Julia. My dear Julia.

6. As I sit in the Chestnut Tree Cafe and think of Big Brother and Julia, many thoughts haunt me. I am torn in opinions, and I feel better, but not good. I think of my mom and my sister and I feel a deep sadness. I think of Julia, and our time we shared and I am disgusted. We sold out each other, and some day we may see each other again.